Almost 10 min i was staring the screen but can't even think of what to post in my blog. Many feeling i wana release out in the form of words, but why suddenly everything was blanked in my mind? Everytime after i released everything out here i will feel more comfortable. If can be chosed, sure i wana share with the person i love much but i scare will pressure him and cause him unhappy. I already promised myself that i don't want to make him unhappy because of me. It will be great if he is willing to listen each and everything of mine....

If we have a power to control the movement of our life, sure i will switch on the stop button at my most happiness moment with him. Sure we must be the happiest couple in the world, hahaha. So greedy was i, but i was very sure that every gal was having the same thinking as mine.

Still remember there was one night when i asked him can we go back to the passed 1 week time which both of us were so happy with each other doing everything, never expect the answer from him is try his best to do it! Don't know what to say, can only feel my heart was so pain on that night and only know crying and crying stopless. That is the 1st time i was crying hurtly with the thinking of i will lose him.

Did i really the type of needing a man who can 24 hours staying beside me? Instead of thinking i was this type of gal why don't think that what is the reason for me to let you have such feeling?

I always keep in my mind of what my best friend told me an example before, "when we just bought a new car which we like it very much and hope to own it very long already sure we will 24 hours also take good care of the car, we will wash it, vacum it, polish it everyday without fail and sure we will feel very very sad if the car is crashed or scratched maybe till we can't eat at all or will affect our mood of that day. However, when the time is passed, it is very normal that the way we treat the car was not as good and often as at the beginning, but this doesn't mean that we don't like or love the car as we know and very clear that the car is still belonged to us and already became an asset of us".

Perhaps not only me, i know that he will also have the same feeling as mine that where is the sharie with all the comfortable feeling and caring which he know me at the beginning? Really hope that instead of letting both of us have such kind of feeling to each other, why dont i start to play the part to let him get back the feeling from the sharie who he needs and wants, who can give him such the nice feeling before? God bless sharie, hope sharie can do it and wana tell him that please don't give up with me!