Today the whole day i have no energy to talk and move at all, no appetite at all, only think to go back home fast after work. What's wrong with me? I feel like uneasy, unusual....feel like losing something which is very important to me.
This morning when driving to office, my mind think of many things, i receive a call from him when i am on the way to office, the voice is so soft, so gentle and so comfortable. He sent many sms to me today, i will smile while i am reading every sms he sent to me, so sweet. I know that he must be super happy when receive my reply of his sms.
I really miss his voice so much today, keep thinking what is he doing? Did he manage to handle every of his work? Did he have his meal? Did he drink enough of water? Did he have enough sleep? Did he miss me much? Hope everything is fine for him when i am not beside him.
Did i really make a decision which hurt him? If i can choose i really dont want such damn decision! It really hurt, not only hurt him, it also hurt me badly! But what shall i do? If he really love me and wanna me to be a happy and hang fook gal forever, why he still keeping me suffer, keeping me cry and cry again? I can only say that if he really treasure me, sure he will know what to do to keep me with him forever.
He did ask me a question, will i be feeling happy and giving him a chance if few more days later he come to me and tell me that he already can give me his answer which i want? If he really understand me, he should know what is my answer to him but hopefully everything will not be too late....
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